Happiness, where art thou?

I have tears in my eyes right now. Nowadays I cry a lot – because I am unable to handle so much of work pressure. The new assignment which I have taken up from April 1 is very stressful – it leaves me completely drained off! I have absolutely no time to do anything – right from cooking, to talking to my daughters, to even doing regular household chores – I am completely at the mercy of my assignment! I do them only if I have time and most of the times I don’t get the time.

It’s so annoying to be not able to do anything except go on trolling for news from across the globe. Why should I be interested in knowing what’s happening around the world when I don’t know what my daughters are doing in their May school holidays. It’s so frustrating to see them only watch television throughout the day because we are not able to go out on short trips the way we used to earlier! There is no break from this mundane news search! I am so frustrated!

I am at the computer from the time I wake up in the morning till late at night and on top of that, I get to hear unhealthy things about my work. It’s extremely demotivating – I can’t react back because I need this job. I am stressed out.

I can’t even blog but I have been intending to write a post with the above title – and then today I saw this beautiful necklace. It gave me a good feeling and there were tears in my eyes and I started writing this post – something in me stirred after seeing this necklace and it brought back my vigour to write! I am feeling nice to vent my feelings through this post; feeling like good old times!

But one thing is for sure – the Lord is there with me during these testing times! He has not forsaken me and He has not forgotten me. He sees the tears I shed everyday and I am sure that He intentionally brought up this beautiful necklace to perk me up! He knows I like jewellery and that’s the reason He is speaking to me through this necklace! The Lord always speaks to His people through circumstances, situations and may be objects – He is speaking to me through this diamond necklace!

He is telling me, Jubilee, my child, don’t be disheartened. I am always with you. He wants me to look at the beauty of this necklace and remind myself that how much more beautiful the Lord Himself is. He is much more beautiful than the beauty of ten such necklaces – He’s awesome, He’s incomparable, He is compassionate and He is counting all my tears and witnessing all my hardship. He will reward me at His own time. I just have to be patient and rely on His well-timed plans. I have to keep trusting in Him!