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Friday, July 13, 2018

Allegiance to Christ!

Our Spiritual Director and other seniors always say that OCDS is not a pious association. OCDS is a commitment!

Commitment means "the state or qualify of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc". It also means "dedication, allegiance, loyalty, faithfulness, fidelity, bond, adherence, and attentiveness".

So, OCDS is all of the above and I am so priviledged to be a Secular Carmelite!

One word which is always used in OCDS is "allegiance" -- "allegiance to Christ" -- so what does this mean now?

Allegiance means loyalty or commitment to a superior or to a group or cause. So "allegiance to Christ" simply should mean "loyalty or commitment to Christ".

So, if OCDS is a commitment, and allegiance to Christ means commitment to Christ, OCDS simply should means "Commitment to Christ"!

So as a Carmelite my sole purpose is to be committed to Christ!!!

What can be more beautiful than this?

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Jubilee Cardozo of St. Mary Magdalene

Right now I am reading the autobiography of the Carmelite saint, Saint Therese of Lisieux!

The more I read the more I am inspired to write my feelings for Jesus Christ!

Though my professional writings have always been ridiculed, I am sure that Jesus will never ridicule my writings for Him.

I will keep on writing all my feelings for Him as and when I get them.

My writings are my only way of expressing my love for Him.

PS: Hey, I just remembered something which has nothing to do with my writings!

But it has everything to do with me being a Secular Carmelite!

So what if I am not a religious Carmelite; when I entered my novitiate on 14 December 2016, I took the name of St. Mary Magdalene!

After completing my journey of OCDS Aspirancy, when I entered into the formal stage of formation, I was vested with the Scapular and began my Novitiate and I took the religious name of St. Mary Magdalene...the patron saint of converts (like me)...!!!

Oh yes, how could I forget this!

So my heart, rejoice at this beautiful remembrance -- my religious name is Jubilee Cardozo of St. Mary Magdalene!!!

Carmelite Saints

From the time I have joined OCDS, we have been constantly told to read books on the life of Carmelite saints. Since these books are not easily available, I have downloaded few from the internet.

Last week I tried reading "Ascent to Mount Carmel" by Carmelite Doctor of the Church, St. John of the Cross. I just managed to go through the introduction -- I couldn't understand much so I gave up.

Then I read some of the writings of women Carmelite saints. I was filled with jealousy because they addressed Jesus as their 'Beloved' and in some places as 'Heavenly Spouse'. I am jealous because how, I too, wish to call Jesus my 'beloved'. But I have an earthly spouse whom I need to love with a sincere heart. He's my 'beloved'.

Though I love Jesus above all things and above everyone else, it is my foremost duty to love my earthly spouse and daughters. For this reason, Jesus will be my friend -- my bestest friend! Or rather a family friend!

He will be an intimate family friend and I am sure when we do "Lord, Lord" He will take all four of us with Him to our heavenly home.

But the women saints calling Jesus with such love expressions really fills me with jealousy. I might not read books written by them -- I would rather prefer reading books written by men saints!

Nevertheless, yesterday again it occurred to me that if the Lord had to touch my heart during my childhood itself, who knows I might have been leading a religious life right now. Since I came to know Jesus only after my marriage I am sure my marriage to a Christian was just the Lord's way to call me into His marvellous light. He had surely known me since the time of my conception; it was just that He had to make known to me!

Since the time He has made Himself known to me, I am His beloved child...He's is that father and brother whom I never got in my life!