My Daughters

My Daughters
my cute daughters

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Hospitalized :(

On Monday night, I was hospitalized. Since then I am in the hospital. I am writing my blog from the hospital. Don't know what to write but just keeping myself engrossed and my blog updated.

Its really so painful to be in the hospital. The nurses are so ruthless. The sight of needles and tubes and the smell of medicine is really killing me. I am missing my home.

I am missing my daughters. I am missing my husband. I am missing my doggies. I am having a pathetic time of my life.

Friday, July 23, 2010

No fear of rejection

It’s been 12 days since the time I have written about anything. Fact is, there wasn’t much to write about and here I am just to keep the blog going. It shouldn’t look dull. After all, it’s BRAND JUBILEE CARDOZO.

Phew! I am still scratching my head for a topic. But this is my blog. I can write whatever I want to and anyhow I want to. There’s no one sitting on my head to edit my writing and I have no deadlines to meet. I don’t have to rewrite my stuff if my stupid editor doesn’t like it. I don’t have the fear of rejection. It’s my world and my writing. I am the queen.

Friday, July 9, 2010

July 11

At dawn on the morning of July 11, 19.., yours truly was born.

More than a century ago, on this very day in 1859, “A Tale of Two Cities” by Charles Dickens was published. No wonder then Charles Dickens is my most favourite Classic Literature writer though I haven’t yet read this book. But since it was published on the day I was born, I intend to read it sooner than later now.

Then in 1893, the first cultured pearl was obtained by Kokichi Mikimoto. My love for gems and jewellery and now pearls is not unknown. In fact, pearl is my birthstone. So I’ll have to get a pearl…...soon.

A total solar eclipse will be occurring on July 11, 2010. I hope it doesn’t eclipse all my birthday plans.

And this is something I have always known. World Population Day is celebrated on 11th July every year. Well, just because I am born on this day, one can’t celebrate such days. Am I taking up so much space on the face on this earth?

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Being a mother!

Last night, while going to sleep, Goldie asked me a very thought-provoking question. She asked, “Do you like being a mother or it’s boring”? For that fraction of a second, I had to quickly think of an answer which would not be wrong and hurt her feelings. Luckily for me, I answered, “I like being your as well as Dibai’s (Jemimah) mother. Not anyone else’s”. At this, she hugged me tight. I think this answer satisfied her.

But her question kept me awake for a while and set me thinking. I was actually thinking how it is for me being a mother. So far, it has come to me with its own share of ups and downs. More of downs because being a working mother, I have always craved for that “extra hour” to be added to my busy curriculum. I have to run the round-the-clock marathon and things don’t always go my way.

Of course, there have been some very satisfying and fulfilling moments also when I have felt very proud of being a mother. But like I am saying, there have been more of testing moments depending on the mood and behavior of the children as well as me. I haven’t received anything on the platter.

Most of my previous bosses have been so non-cooperative that I had to give up so many jobs just to look after my daughters. Though being a mother has been the most difficult and challenging task for me, I am happy to learn from each and every debacle and setback.

“All women become like their mothers. That is their tragedy. No man does. That's his.” says, Oscar Wilde in “The Importance of Being Earnest”. Well, I don’t know how much I have become like my mother because the greatest differentiating factor between me and my mom is that she has always being a homemaker whereas I had to slog it out-of-home as well right from the word go. This has made me aggressive and I have the tendency of losing my temper at the drop of a hat. She doesn’t get flustered that easily. But I too have my own virtues of being a mother.

But to reiterate Goldie’s question: yes, I like being a mother and I am proud of being a mother. All stumbling blocks are just making me learn how to handle tricky situations in motherhood. Like the tagline of Surf Excel “daag acche hai”, I would like to say, “stumbling blocks acche hai”.