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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Change is inevitable!

Motu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am brimming with excitement. I feel I have so much to download to you.

My excitement started from yesterday afternoon while I was going back home. Honestly, I was just sick and tired of listening to 104.8 FM and really needed a change. The songs were getting repetitive and predictable and most of the RJs boring. Since change is the only constant, for a change, I tried listening to 92.7 Big FM and believe you me; I was bowled over by the songs they played. There’s this RJ Anirudh, who I must say, is one hell of a guy. I was astonished to hear his collection of songs. I heard songs which I had long forgotten and also forgotten that they ever existed. “Tumhi hamari ho manzil my love” from the movie YAARA DILDARA (1991) is one song so close to my heart since school days and I heard this song yesterday after years and years and years. This guy on 92.7 Big FM played all ‘my kind’ of songs and went on playing it. I just loved listening to his show and I am looking forward to it today also. I hope he doesn’t disappoint me. I must add that he has the right attitude, doesn’t try to imitate any Bollywood actor and talks no-nonsense and, most importantly, doesn’t use ‘tapori’ language. That’s the biggest saving grace.

Secondly, on my way to office this morning, I saw an amazing combo of navy blue top with navy blue jeans on a mannequin at Wills Lifestyle. Sadly, I am not carrying my ‘black’ money with me but in the afternoon I will do something which I don’t like to do at all – I will swipe my debit card and buy these clothes while going home. You see I am so desperate. I know it isn’t good but just can’t help it. I absolutely loved these clothes at first sight! I will get that much money deposited in my account because I have kept that money in the account for some other reason and don’t want the ECS to get disturbed. I hope my excitement doesn’t die when I actually see the top because it has happened with me in the past that the things which usually looked beautiful from far mostly didn’t turn out to be that beautiful from up close and personal. I hope it will turn out to be as beautiful as I felt it to be otherwise you know I will be so very disappointed.

I guess I needed this change and I am so glad it has finally happened. I don’t know what brought this inevitable change in me but if I am not mistaken, it all happened when I dared to read THE BLACK TULIP by Alexander Dumas earlier this week. This book is a new entrant in my library and I simply don’t know what made me try out reading this ‘new’ book. I guess it helped me in breaking my shackles and coming out of my comfort zone which I had been dreading from so long. This has given me the much-needed courage and I am ready to try out everything new. I will shop in new places like ‘Globus’ and ‘Fabindia’ which I always saw on my way to office but never thought of visiting as I have been skeptical to try out anything new. Right now I am prepared to face these changes in my life and will definitely try out the clothes over there. You never know what exciting thing I might come across over there. I am ready for all changes now. I am no more petrified.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Withdrawal syndrome

I guess I am suffering from withdrawal syndrome (WS) of late. According to Wikipedia, a ‘withdrawal syndrome’, is also called a ‘discontinuation syndrome’ and withdrawal may be a series of physical, emotional and behavior changes experienced when a ‘drug’ is cut down.

According to a research by ‘The Telegraph’, our Facebook generation suffers information withdrawal syndrome by turning off mobile phones, avoiding the internet and tuning out of the television and radio. The research says that all these things can leave people suffering from symptoms similar to those seen in drug addicts trying to go cold turkey.

Presently, I have begun to develop symptoms typically seen in smokers attempting to give up. For me it has been a very long and painful process. While all this is occurring to me, I read that all these can also cause a variety of problems known as Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS).

OMG, my nervous system is in a hyperactive state and I just don’t know how to minimize this discomfort and help my body and soul heal.

Monday, August 29, 2011

When you love a woman......

To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - if she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman then tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman then tell her that she's the one
'cause she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
till you know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
then tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman then tell her that she's the one
'cause she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - you gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman? You got to tell me
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Great Expectations

Last night, I started reading GREAT EXPECTATIONS (GE) by Charles Dickens. Its one of the most ‘deliciously readable books’ by my favorite author and one of my favorite Classics as well.


GE has two endings – one original and the other which Dickens wrote at the very last moment. It seems he wasn’t too happy with the original ending of GE that Victorians read and so he tampered with the original ending. Whatever it is, I enjoy reading both the endings and this is for the second time that I am reading this book.


What I like about most of the characters in Dickens’ stories is that they are all very humble and have humble beginnings. They all prosper at a later stage in their life – so much like me! Another thing I like in his stories is that though some stories like HARD TIMES have a slow and boring beginning, they pick up momentum at a certain stage. So, one can really not put down any of Dickens’ book at any given point of time. They are all readable.


GE was first published in a serial form.


From Monday, that is, 22nd August, I have started reading THE SCARLETT LETTER in the train. It is an 1850 Classic romantic work by Nathaniel Hawthorne. This book is considered to be his magnum opus and I am really enjoying reading it for the second time. It’s a big change from the usual English Classics read by me as it’s an American
novel.


I just don’t understand this new psychological high which I get nowadays to re-read all my older collection of Classics. I am not buying anything new of late and not willing to read anything new at this present moment. I just don’t know why I am doing this.




Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Out of hell…

Darling Motu, am back!


I am so, so, so, sorry…but honestly, I really didn’t miss you at all. The fact is, my work kept me busy round the clock, churning out daily show reports. My erratic working hours, meeting uncooperative people and no green tea in the last nine days were like hell. I am so glad to be out of it. Now I have no words left within me to write to you. Give me sometime to get back to my normal self.


In the last nine days, I again got addicted to coffee and would have 3-4 cups in a day to drive away drowsiness and boredom. I have brought my green tea sachet with me to the office today and looking forward to having it after my lunch.


What gladdened my heart soon after reaching office was that the Cat at least had the curtsey to welcome me back in the office and not go away wishing me a dry good morning as usual!!!