My Death

Dear DLL Jesus,

Yesterday a very well-known OCDS member from Goa expired. Today was her funeral Mass at the Carmelite monastery in Goa. Nine priests celebrated the Mass. I don't know how to express myself. Life is so unpredictable even though she was battling something incurable. I am so disturbed by this death. The last time I was disturbed by someone outsider's death was that of singer KK whom again I had known and spoken and written about in 1999. He expired in June 2022. 

The thoughts of my death come to me right now. I am not afraid of death. I just want you to give me a good death and a place in your arms. Please give me a peaceful death as I want to die in Carmel in Peace - I am sure it is possible. It will be the last desire of the heart to die before a certain age - yes, not very old. I don't want to die an old lady as my age will be revealed. I want to die while on the younger side. Let my death remain as a sad memory in the deepest corner of Carmel Peace as I will have the privilege to die a Carmelita. I want a death that will grieve my Carmel Peace because there's no deceit in Carmelo Pace.

Yesterday I could not do the readings for today. So it was only during the Mass that I came to know what today's readings were. I like the first reading taken from the Book of Wisdom and even the Responsorial Psalm. I thought of Mio Carmelo Pace when I read the verses of the Psalm. I refuse to believe that there is any deceit in Mio Carmelo Pace - il pace è perfetto 👌🤗👌, unlike others who are filled with mind games. 

It is because of Pace that I exist in the Giardino di Carmelo - I believe in this Peace - there is no deceit in this Peace. There can be no deceit because my instinct feels it and you know that my instinct is hardly wrong. So I feel this Peace and my Peace feels me. I love my Peace and my Peace loves me. We are in love with each other.🤗 And I love being in love with Peace🤗♥️🤗 - madly in love with each other - I am not the only one! Mio Carmelo Pace loves me with equal fervour!!!💖💖

And so when I die please allow me to be buried in Peace and a piece of Peace buried in me. That's the kind of death I want Lord. But you never give what we want but what we need. So if you feel that I need Peace and Peace needs me, please Lord let your will be done! Let my Carmel Peace miss me!😇👏😇